sobriety came and went without leaving their number. in a month without drinking
i had a different experience the next day.
it started as a treat.
everything would have been fine if had
the problem with bars sometimes is that they serve you drinks you don’t order.
i took the following week off. the day i spent at work that monday was bad. i did my best to hide my hangover, but i know that people could hear me throwing up in the bathroom.
what’s interesting is that i remember throwing up in great detail, but i don’t remember the nights that led to it. what happened to make me go overboard? i know this time because i was only a week ago. but what the fuck made me drink so much that i had to pull over because i threw up on the steering wheel?
what interesting about the first time
the second time
just like before, i vividly remember being sick, but i don’t remember what was different about the night before. i had just finished spending a few weeks in montauk, so maybe i was celebrating being back in brooklyn. spending that much in time in long island would make anyone drink.
that entire trip was wild. i was originally visiting friends for halloween. somehow that turned into working on a feature three hours away from everyone i came to see.
less than 48 hours after sleeping with her
there wasn’t a minute of my trip where